Kiss
me.
Kiss
me like you used to...
Driving
down the road today
I
burst into sobs
I
was thinking about my loneliness
It's
been two years since I was kissed
(No,
not two years
There
was that night last September.)
And
a scenario played itself out in my head
I
asked you for a favor
A
bit of meaninglessness
Steeping
into youe space and looking into your eyes
I
said
Kiss
me
Kiss
me like you used to
It's
been two years
And
I need this like I need air
Like
I need water
I
lean in, standing on tiptoe
My
mouth a breath away from yours
I
can see the surprise in your eyes
And
then a rush of pain
I
say, in this space next to your lips,
I
don't want to be your lover
Or
your girlfriend
Or
your wife
It's
just been so long
And
I ache
I
ache inside
My
voice, it shakes
My
eyes, they tear
I
hold my breath
In
a gaspy weep
In
my head
This
daydream unplanned
You
gathered me in your arms in one fast move
And
kissed me
Your
mouth so hungry and soft
Your
hands tight around me, pulling me into you
I
stroked your face
And
in the truck
I
burst into sobs
No
matter how aching I am
No
matter how I starve
I
can't go down that road again
A
kiss like that can't mean nothing
I
wouldn't love it if it did
And
my luck, it'd be all wrong
You
would be gentle and hesitant
Or
outright say no
Instead
of movie credits and music
We'd
stand humilated
Heavy
with sorrow
How
long can a person live
without
kisses?
How
much of myself do I lose with each passing
Empty
Fantasy?
My
heart breaks
A
little
When
couples embrace on tv
When
I pass a beautiful face
And
my imagination forms a scene
When
I remember being in love
When
I remember people I never see
Anymore
Every
person I pass
I
think to them
Kiss
me
A
tiny bit of me is lost
When
they walk right by
Kiss
me
Kiss
me like you used to
Kiss
me like you want to consume my sorrow
Drink
my tears
Eat
my voice
Make
me forget my name
Copyright
2003 by Sarah Gaunt
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